Steady my heart....

It's Monday. This is going to be a big week. Today is Henley's swallow study. In just under an hour we will begin this procedure. I am sitting in my chair at home trying to be proactive about a panic attack I feel coming on. In the midst of trying to get my breathing under control and stop the urge I feel to throw up. I hear Henley upstairs singing at the top of her lungs, a song that she has no idea has carried me through so many things. She is singing every word as clear as can be. I can hear each word as if it were from The Lord reminding me  in this moment of his constant love for me. 

"Steady My Heart"
 

Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy?
Why is pain a part of us?
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here
You're real
I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts
Even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
'Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars
You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry
I know that You've got me
Right inside the palm of your hand
Each and every moment
What's good and what gets broken
Happens just the way You plan

Please say a prayer for us this week as we have this study today and then Henley's sleep study on Wednesday night. Adam is out of town this week in between these appointments and so in addition to this week being a lot to process through in my head, I have our three precious babies by myself for a couple days. Nothing I can't handle, it's just lots to manage this week. Please pray for clear cut answers and no grey areas. Either, there is a problem, or we rule it out completely. Thanks y'all.